i am beat, beat i am... sounds and visions and needs and desires and things left on the backburner and i realize that i am here and now and i can only touch on here and now and the greatest history is merely i was here and i saw this and i felt this and i am what i am and this is all i know and i have deadened myself for so long with booze and i want to tell my story sober and unafraid... look out world... here it comes