people drive me batty. everything we dislike we usually are, and most certainly no one drives me more batty than my self. don't get me wrong about people it is good to be in a group of two or maybe three but then it gets too complicated, people become their illusions of themselves. it is like suddenly everyone in the room will only speak through a puppet on their hand and those puppets talk only nonsense about what it is like to be a puppet and how interesting they are and how much they suffer, our soul sits quietly and lets the puppet talk. the great human farce trudges on and on on every one of the millions of channels of individual self-perception. each one of those channels is a swimming virus of individual consciousness that invades the very body of god and works to destroy it. destroying ourselves, the signature of ego. self-love leads to self-destruction. loss of self is the beginning of love. love is the substance of the creator, love that is strengthened by every instant a human soul through the peaceful eyes of grace perceives it. it is said that just an second of that peace that passeth understanding is enough to cause celebration in heaven and even those suffering in purgatory are said to receive some relief from their suffering because of it. that pure love of which our earthly version is only a mirage is the door that leads out of this cycle and into completeness of heaven... in the physical world the man known as bobbycrowe <after waking out of a month long internet job nightmare in france> is currently holed up in #8 his u.k. headquarters. the loft is just as it was. like a memory or a hallucination. no heat here though and an early winter. its like a hippie version of where the iceman lived in that batman movie. maybe it could be the home of his brother niceman. well ok maybe riceman then. where to now? no idea. just waiting to be clear enough to see it. the blue room helps, the gray sky helps. a time to be peaceful in. all of it helps me reconnect to the map. wish you all peace in whatever way you are choosing to seek it.